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[usernamenumber]

Just recorded and distributed some videos for internal training on the changes to our courseware delivery methods that make up a big part of the project that's been eating my life for the last 1.5 years. The changes go live 10/12, so... wow. The end of the beginning is in sight. I feel good about that.

I've taken two adderall to stay with it today (total of 10mg), which still bothers me. It's starting to feel like a dose gives me the ability to sprint for a couple of hours, but then concentrating starts to get difficult again. Upping the dose doesn't seem like a... scalable solution, so I guess hrmm...

Later today I go to my first meeting with my old therapist in... wow, a long time. Then to a party where I'll see juldea for the first time in a few days and.... well, I guess we'll see how that goes. I have contingency plans in place for varying levels of escape for the rest of the weekend in case I freak out. We'll see.

In amusing news, this will actually technically be my second recent meeting with Mr. Therapist. Instead of spending our first hour inevitably hashing out all the background stuff, I offered to pay him for a session to spend an hour reading and digesting my recent LJ posts, which he accepted. Yes, I have now done an intake via blog. Aint modern life grand?

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[bkdelong.livejournal.com]

Nice idea....hope it works.

Don't up the dose...I think it's keeping the consistency. I find regular adderall only lasts 4hrs for me and then I come down hard. I now take the Adderall XR which lasts about 5hrs and is a more gradual decline.

[arachne8x.livejournal.com]

Interesting, I wouldn't be comfortable with a therapist reading my LJ posts. But it sounds like it would be a good tool.

[usernamenumber.livejournal.com]

I've been experimenting lately with not flocking most of my posts and trying to adopt an "everyone else is as fucked up as I am, whether they admit it or not" approach and not be shy about getting soul-barey when appropriate. So I figured since the posts were there and public anyway, I might as well save myself the talk-time and point him to them.

[arachne8x.livejournal.com]

Oh absolutely. It's a pretty awesome idea.

[mirrored-echo.livejournal.com]

Good luck getting through the weekend!

Interesting approach, with LJ; I tend to have trouble posting stuff that's really raw enough to be accurate though (then, even with therapists, I have a hard time not portraying things as better than they actually are.) I think I'm also really self-conscious about the comments they'd make about posting this sort of thing on LJ (I had to leave college after a former friend showed someone a friends-locked post written while severely depressed; this is reason behind severe ambivalence over LJ.) Have definitely had people request emailed life histories, though, which can be useful.

[faerieboots.livejournal.com]

Hmm, an intake via lj is a really interesting idea! I am glad your therapist agreed to it, because that sounds like an excellent way for you to go through an intake.

I hope the session and the party went well!